Friday, July 30, 2004

The Dreaded Phone Call

Today as I was checking my messages I heard a recording that went something like this "Hello Chica, this is Bertha from The Women's Center. Please give me a call back". She left her number. I called back, but the office closed at noon. OMG!!!

I thought back about my visit with the doctor. During both exams, blood and vaginal, they said that they would only contact me if something was wrong with the tests. They stated that over and over again. Now I know something is wrong...the exams could of indicated something as trivial as my thyroid medicine needing to increase/decrease or as horrible as that I have a malign tumor and have only 6 months to live. My brain immediately jumped to the tumor...this will not be a good weekend. Maybe that is what I get for making fun in my July 8th post.

The tumor has made me think a lot about my life and all the things I have yet to do. I feel that I need to call someone and patch things over. I need to take my shoes off and run in the rain. Squeeze life dry. Make myself 110% happy. It is really funny how a call like that can make you rethink your life.

I have a LONG weekend ahead of guys have fun out there.

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Poop Emergency

I dont' know what to do! I need some advice. My daughter will be three next week and after she found out that she will be a big sister she has stopped going in the potty. It sucks!!

She was 85% potty trained (I don't know how I came up with 85%, but it seems like a good number). She was going poo and pee all the time in the potty, she was even sleeping with panties...She did not wet the bed once!!! The only thing, she was a little slow at telling me that she needed to go potty when we were out, but we would get to the bathroom on time most of the time.

Today I tried leaving her with out a Pull-Up to see if she would run to the potty, but she cried and held her pee in until I put a pull-up on. During the process I tried sitting her in the potty, both hers and ours, and she screamed.

I need some advice from mothers that have gone through this. I just don't want to be called in to her high school every time she needs her diaper changed. Help!!!

Friday, July 23, 2004

10 Year Anniversary

I just found out that today is the 10th, yes 10th, anniversary of the movie Pulp Fiction. Oh, I just feel so old at this moment.

The Complexities of Death

I attended a funeral yesterday. One of J.R.s co-workers committed suicide. At lunch J.R. and I were discussing, well, I said, that I think it takes a lot of courage for a person to kill themselves. J.R. immediately disagreed by saying that it is so much easier to escape than to deal with issues.

I feel that even though suicide might seem like an easy way out, it is not. You have to think of the planning that goes involved in the process. First, you have to think of how. Next, you have to deal with the fact that you will never see your loved ones again and how much grief you will put them through. After that, the person needs to be certain that the afterlife is better than the situation that they are currently in. That itself takes a lot of guts.
What gets to me the most is that death is actually an option. Dying, doing all the steps, is better than dealing with the issues you currently living.

The Funeral House was packed, there were over 200 people. One by one - niece, colleague, brother and friend got up and spoke about how great this guy was. They shared memories and even though I did not know the deceased well the stories brought tears to my eyes. It was a sad afternoon.

After the memorial service I thought of the deceased's wife, they had been married for 23 years! Her husband committed suicide while she was out of town. When she got home she found his body. In my case, I don't know if I would be angry at him for leaving me to find his body alone or angrier for knowing that my love for him could not save him.

Monday, July 19, 2004

Boston Recap

Well, I finally made it back home from Boston. I love going there but this time the visit was not as great mostly because I had to be there till Sunday (I saved the company $1000 by having a Saturday night stay) and I could not drink. I am not a BIG drinker, but I do enjoy a beer here and there. Plus it seems that all my co-workers do is drink. Well, it is fun getting together with people you only see once a year and talking while kicking back a few. I usually enjoy doing that a lot more than I did this time...Maybe I was not drunk enough.

The work meetings were long and boring. We had the Quality something, Sexual Harassment, and the Save Internet Usage or what I like to call the - "do-not-do-anything-on-your-computer-ever-again-or-else-a-giant-virus-will-infect-
your-machine-and-you-will-not-only-loose-your-job-but-you-will-be-sued-by-the-company" meeting. The self-proclaimed "Super Hacker" had us all pretty scared.

I also had my yearly evaluation. I got a raise 3.5% and a CE (constantly Exceeds) which will come in handy when the yearly bonuses roll around.

Overall, this company meeting was good. Oh, yeah, we are all heading back to Boston in December for some training...yippie me (sarcastic. Not that I do not like Boston, but it seems that the weather knows when we, or me, are coming. This year it rained half the time and last winter New England had their first snow storm of the season which stopped traffic for 2.5 hours. Yeap, I just love Boston in winter).

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Sorry Guys

Sorry guys, but I have been bad with blogging this week. The reason is that I do not have internet at the hotel. Well, I do, but have to pay $9.99 a day, so I have to blog from the office, which is not easy, because if I think of something it needs to stay in my brain till the following day...most likely not going to happen.

Well, I am hoping to get connected for the weekend and maybe then I can post something interesting. Ok, I will keep you guys posted ;)

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Boston - Update 1

Got to Boston yesterday...yippie. The weather is awesome, well, I think anything in the 70's is great weather right now.

I am in Boston for work, so we had to go through some required training. The first session this morning was Quality something. I don't know, and still don't know, what that meeting had to do with my job. I think we were just guinea pigs.

The afternoon meeting was about the all dreaded issue - Sexual Harassment. Not a how to, mind you, but a boo, hoo, lets spoil the party training. I have a lot of guys to apologize to.

Tomorrow we are going on a Casino Boat. I hope is fun.

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Weight Gain

A couple of weeks ago I blogged about the fact that I was gaining weight at an alarming rate and that only loosing my limbs could save me. Anyway, well, it turns out that I am pregnant. Well, I think, and hope, since my OB/GYN did not have an appointment till the 21st of July, so it is either a baby in there or a huge tumor preventing me from having my period, yeap, I vote for the baby.

I have taken two pregnancy tests, one because I knew something was not right and the second one after the tumor idea got in my head, both test came out positive.

How I got pregnant, where, when - I don't know. I now know how those teenage girls feel when they "surprisingly" end up pregnant. At first I thought, and still think, that it was an immaculate conception, because if it was anything else I did not enjoy it as much as "we are making a baby" sex should be enjoyed. As a matter of fact I feel robbed now that I think about it!

Anyway, we are excited about the baby, and Baby Girl is thrilled. I was getting tired of her asking me for a baby, so I am glad one is on the way.

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

My Fourth of July Weekend

I finally made it back home from Puerto Rico on Friday. The trip was fun, but I was really, really, missing home.

The getting home part was pretty much the highlight of my weekend. The next three days were pretty low key. On Saturday we cleaned up some around the house and went out to see the Astros play. Baby Girl is still not an Astros fan, she, again, started to cry as soon as we sat down and did not stop until we left the stadium. J.R. and I figured that they must inject kids with something up in Boston when they are born, because she is a ardent Red Sox fan.

On Sunday we hung out, went to Home Depot and bought a new fan. My sister came up and we all headed out to eat some BBQ. I thought we would be the only people at the BBQ restaurant, but I was so wrong. After we had ordered the restaurant got so packed that the line went all the way outside (I was glad we got there before the crowd). Geez, and here I thought we were being lazy by not barbecuing. At around 9pm we headed to see the fireworks.

After the firework show we went home and had a show of our own.

On Monday we just hung out, went out to eat, and went shopping.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Commercials in Movies

Yesterday as J.R. and I were driving around seeing the Puerto Rico sights we decided that we should go to the movies. The last movie I saw was Shrek 2 and before that I think it was Frida. J.R. and I were the type of couple that were at the theatre every weekend and some times we would double-dip, or triple-dip if we had nothing else to do, but that was over 4 years ago.

As soon as we walked towards the theatre we could see hundreds of people lined up to watch Spiderman 2. J.R. really wants to see Spiderman 2 and I might since everyone says that it is way better than the first. Anyway, because of the LONG lines we decided to see The Stepford Wives, but that is not the point of the story. The point is that before the movie started there were, and I kid you not, no less than 20 commercials with two movie previews mixed in.

I could not believe it!! 20 commercials seems a little extreme. In looking around I have found out that the price of the before movie commercials is increasing mainly because people are no longer watching commercials at home. There is TiVo and so many channels that it makes it impossible for marketers to find a captive audience - and captive we were. We sat there and watched as 5, 10 and then 20 commercials announcing anything from Coca Cola, hotels, and digital cameras danced on the screen. After all that I was tired. I have never wanted a movie to start so bad in my life.

I guess it is good that we are not addicted to theatres anymore. I don't know that I would be able to pay $8 to watch a movie with 25 minutes worth of commercials. I guess watching Spiderman 2 at the theatre is not going to happen.